The other day, Ellie and I were chatting, and she said something about how “You prayed to Cupid and He gave me to you.” Of course, the silly pagan in me thought of the fact that we met via the site OKCupid, and the commonly-known Greek Eros, the god of love, who was conflated with the Roman Cupid.
I realize that not all of our lives are influenced by the gods, but I have come to realize it’s important to give Them honor when you think They have given you a blessing, just in case.
I’m not ignoring this blog, I promise. The problem is that I have been feeling stressed lately, and we’ve been looking at wedding venues (two separate links!), which is making me get really antsy about the wedding. Plus I’m going to NYC this weekend for shiggles and dress searching with my MoH’s (not planning to buy, especially in NYC, but it’s an excuse to get away for a couple days and have some fun). Thus I’m pretty exclusively blogging at the wedding site. Not to mention the fact that, other than the wedding, my life is pretty damn boring lately.
WIT is super dull–it’s the height of the year in Operations because of Housing Selection, yet I’ve still been given nothing to do.
MCPHS is better, but it’s still pretty slow until after warnings go out and I can finally start meeting with students that are academically at-risk (ooo, that’s a good phrase to put in my resume!)
Classes are pretty average; not a lot of work, but I do have a project in a couple weeks that I need to get the reading done for so I can get together with my partner and plan. I am so absolutely done with this semester it’s not even funny. Just get me out and into a job!
And I still have to work on my presentation for the True Colors Conference, which I’ll do after we get back from our trip to NJ next week.
I was chatting with Ellie via text earlier and figured something out. She’s been having a rough time at work lately–nothing job-threatening (that I know of), but it’s stressful and frustrating her to no end. And I can’t blame her for that.
But, her being stressed over her job gives me HUGE anxiety. I finally figured out why–it’s because of one of my ex-girlfriends. In college, I dated a woman that could NOT keep a job, no matter what. I’m talking, quitting jobs within the first MONTH type of not keeping a job. I blame her for a lot of my money issues; I supported her financially for pretty much the entire 2 years we were together, putting myself into deep credit card debt. I’m not saying she was the total reason for my difficulties, but I do feel things may not have been so bad if I didn’t have to try to support 2 people on my $7/hour Work Study job.
I don’t think Ellie will ever put me in a situation like this. Even when she was out of work last year, she pulled as many shifts at her part-time job as she could, fought with Unemployment and her former company to get paid, and worked her ASS off to get her current job. She has never asked me to pull more than my weight financially, often taking on more herself. But this all this still hasn’t totally overcome the internal stress that is triggered when her job isn’t going well.
Now to figure out how to get over myself…